Its been like 10 months since lockdown, and now things are pretty normal, everything is back to its normal life. but it seems like my life is still stuck in endless loop of disappointments.

I have been graduated since 2 months and still I'm thinking what I want, I know what I want from life but still it feels like it is out of my hands.

I dont know why I suck at aptitute test like seriously I got 88 percentage in graduation still not able to solve a single problem of quants like why, when I open quoraa there are a lot of people who write about their experience about the examination of ssc, sbi po and all exams that have quants in it. Im done with this

And I know I'm not alone into this there are a lot of people like me, maybe you are too ,but I got to say one thing , the person who cracks this exams are way out of league, like man you have my respects.

I mean I know the importance of this but still no matter how hard I try I'm not able to solve it, no matter how hard I try, c'mon im very weak in maths'

all my friends are busy in bpo or either wasting their time in the name of chilling, some time I feel like they have no ambition in life and so do I

but I want to do something and wont stop until I get it Done, I have been preparing for quants and failing miserably too but sill I'm trying, what about you?

Once I was talking to one of my long distance friends on career related topics, and when I asked her about her future plans, she clearly denied it.

I was stunned and and asked her about it, and then she taught me a good life lesson which I still remember.

she told me never to babble about our goals and plans to anyone, and just to grind within us and make our goals come true and show them to others when your are burning bright with your success.

Everyone wants to show of about their success and their achievement to the world just to gain importance, but that's not how it works. I think this attract unwanted attention, and sometimes it's not good thing to do so

I assume that if you are really satisfied with yourself then you don't need to show that to the world, you enjoy it with you loved ones and family. 

when I heard that, It has no impact on me and I let it go. But now when I recall  about that thought, it makes sense.

Because no matter how good people are, no matter how good friend he/she is, after all they are humans, and they have a tendency to to loose temper, yes they want to se us growing and becoming successful but the time we try to cross them, things become pretty rough for them. 

they can be happy for you if you are below them but on you start to climb upwards and try to cross them, thats where the problmem begin.

Thats human nature, 

life is hard for everyone except the one who are born with golden spoon or the one who live in their own fantasy land

sometimes your goals are too far from where you are now but you need to work on it from now just to fullfil it in the near future.

sometimes you have to grab some other opportunities for a while but you should never forget your ultimate goal, 

DAy after tommorrow, I have my Entrance exam, I am not sure about it, fingers cross and waiting for this time to pass soon and still waiting for good time ahead

                                                                                                                        -26 Feb 2021.